Dearest Sara And Poay Joo,


HAPPY 21St BIRTHDAY SWEETIES!!

i am a grown up now.
what kind of life i wanna live in, who i wanna be with
i shuld know better den anyone else.
or i should say, i have to know more than anyone else.
who is he?
what kind of person is he?
what he likes?
what he don like?
everyone would ask me to continue with hong wei,
and he is just a passer by
is he raelly just a passer by?
how sure can u be tat he is not treatin u as a spare tire?
how sure can u be tat he can give u more than what hong wei's giving now?
when he don even know me well..
i am sooo confuse.


went for movie with him today. "YES MAN!"
then to bibi's birthday.
bibi didn ask much abt him.
had some pics taken, he kept asking if i will be in trouble
ate some cake,
was really nice, from coffee bean.
den we headed down to chervon.
on the way there,
he asked me lots of questions.
(who the hell will ask the gal if he could chase her
and at the same time, talk nice things abt her bf and
tell her that actually her bf do love her.)
he said he like me..
i can NEVER tell him that i feel the same way too.
cos that will make me EXACTLY the same as her..
and i really don like it.
i know is very unfair to him and to hong wei.
save me anyone!!

he said, maybe we shouldn't be talking to each other already.
it hurts a little.
when i started to fall into the trap.
he pulled me out quick.
he thinks its unfair.

what is love?
why do people need love?
how to tell that i am in love?
how to know if its the right one for you?


ma god.
i really donno what the fuck am i doing?
why does dada wants to be with me?
is it because he love me?
is it a habit of having someone with you?
why am i always stuck in this kind of shit?
what's holding me back?
cos i cant bear to live such a long r/s?
cos i still love him?
cos its a habit?


everyone say,
talk to him about it.
but he never like to talk about this kind of thing.
he say our r/s is fine.
just stay the way it is.
he say if we break up, he won't find another gal.
cos he is lazy to start a r/s all over again.
so.....
its becos he don wanna find another r/s
that's why he is with me?
or...


confuse confuse!!

lastest update for ma little blog


ma little blog's turning dusty soon i realise!
well, nothing much to write actually.


Sat(13/12) - Mon(15/12)


went KL for the weekends, supposingly to celebrate dada's 24th bday,
but ended up, it was quite a bad holiday.
get all biten by the bed bugs hiden in the budget hotel's bed.
ma poor tighs and legs and backs are all so swollen and red.
wanted to go to KL's Zouk but the ppl say its not hot there.
so ended up in their so called KL most hottest club now, "poppy"..
nothing compare to singapore though. music's normal RnB. not that new.
ppl wont as crazy, they drink more than dance.
took a few pictures with dada's good frens but the photos ain't with me.
sad!!!


Tuesday (16/12)


stayed at home, sleep whole day.
enjoy ma last day of non working life!!


Wednesday (17/12)


am back to work at chek chek's place.
tot as a teacher, but actually is to clear the accounting shits.
boring office life. and plus i don even know if am paid for it.
thats one bad thing abt working with own ppl.
money wise is so hard to talk abt.
though is good life job, only from 9am to 1pm.
but still need to wake up so early at 7am.
been slacking for too long man!
den later in the afternoon,
head down with cc to town to get xmas cum bday pressies.
onli manage to get half a pressie though.


"to cc, (though he will nv read it)
thanks for the pleasant & crappy evening!!"


having a busy weekend this week.
bibi's 21st bday on sat and bitches xmas dinner on sun.
its so "nan de" i'm having busy weekends.


ma god. its 10 already!!
off to bed. need to wake up early tml.
so damn not use to it la!!!
SHIT!!!

Study?? Ya right.






Studying on the Topic, "Facial Expressions!"


I swear i can never go out to study with anyone but myself.



Some scenes to share:



Meet Miao Miao:-
Miao Miao: Wha, today so slck leh! Dont feel like studying.
Sonia: Wha, Me too leh.. But cannot cannot. ok we study a while first!
Miao Miao: ok!
(10 mins of slience)
Sonia: Wha, cannot study. Wanna go shopping?
Miao Miao: Ah! ok loh! Lets go!


Meet Jing:-
Sonia: Oh No! i feel like singing k! i saw party world leh.
Jing: later go see the price lo. Ask my bf wanna go not.
Sonia: okok! Study first later than say.
(5mins silence, 30mins talking, 30 mins for lunch, 30mins back to chit chat)
Sonia: So ur bf ok? Wanna go?
Jing: ok! meet at 5.30pm. Time now is 3.00pm
Sonia: okok! Leave at 4.00pm
(1hour continue chitting)
Jing: times up! Lets go!


Meet Celia:-
(30mins study, 30 mins lunch)
(1hour study)
Celia: take picture leh!!!
Sonia: okok..
*pose1, 2, 3, 4, 5........30.......40*
Sonia: ok need to leave liao! dinner time!



so i guess, i need to do it alone.