Sunday, November 9, 2008
For all who loves me
just wanna say THANK YOU to whoever who are concern.
while sometime i wonder if either i have got too high expectations
in relationships or..
Ma past relationships ain't very successful (as some of you might know)
And one of the main reason is ma bad temper
and sticky-ness that they can't take it.
While i don't blame them cause i'm the problem in the first place.
so far, he's not seen my blog.
i have never want him to read it though he kept asking.
he wil probably be so mad and upset if he ever reads it.
cos most of the posts are all complaints abt him.
Well, sometimes its really hard to speak out all your sorrrows
to your friends. Thats why i am just typing it thru this blog.
Its actually just for me to spit out all my unhappiness and disatifations.
to my dearest bitchy soulmate
i really thank you for all the advices you gave me.
i know taht you are just caring and you don't wish to see me get hurt.
But i am sure, you know it's hard to just let go.
I guess i really need him in life.
He's part of ma life, i tells him EVERYTHING.
Can't imagine how my life will turn into without him.
I donno if this is just because i am use to him or is this love.
But all i know is, i need to treasure and cherish him.
Partly cos after reading Charlene's blog,
the more i feel that i will probably be as good as dead if he's no longer
living in the world.
And, i can feel his sister, i know it sounds sick! but ya,
it's like i had been thru thick and thins with him, which
i didnt do it with ma past relationships,
i am very sure, he means so much more than just a boyfriend.
He's like ma family, ma friend, ma punch bag.
so bicth, guess i really need at least one soulmate to be supporting
me, telling me that what ever decision i made is the right one.
Please don't dislike him or blame him for not able to give me
a happy life.
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